This Friday I go in for a physical exam, where my clinic will make sure I won’t have any complications on testosterone by doing a lot of blood work and by cavity searching my cervix. Not really looking forward to either of those, though honestly I am having a hard time deciding which procedure I am looking forward to less. I guess a phobia of needles really doesn’t work in my favor when I’m about to go on injectable hormones.
My first T shot should be before the 21st. About two weeks.
My emotions are rather complicated. I am excited and I am going ahead with everything without regret. I want hormones now but I also don’t want hormones now. I don’t have many pairs of guy pants that fit; my ‘passing’ depends on whether or not I have on a shirt that covers me to mid-thigh, which isn’t really flattering. It’s kind of frustrating but ultimately a big problem I need to fix.
Everything else is going well. My family is better. Oh, I have to come out to a few aunts and uncles and cousins before Thanksgiving, including my 86 year old great grandmother. I suspect she’ll be the most accepting, because honestly my grandparents are just better than yours. Its the rest of them, as well as the many family friends we have, who I am wary of. I am not too keen about becoming dinner time conversation but oh well, what can ya do?
I unfortunately can’t find my webcam anywhere, otherwise I would have given you guys some pictures. I should probably find it, since I need a way to chronicle my changes on T. Then again you have all probably been thankful for the lack of my ugly mug on your dash.
I’m also going to make a list of changes I expect on T, and changes that might happen, and put it here and check each off as they happen. I’ll have a link to it so if you’re curious you can go to it and be like ah yes Gabe’s feet have grown excellent that boy is going places.